Friday, June 17, 2011

Digging Deep

So, yeah, another random title! :D But really once you read it, I think you will get my meaning!

For the past several months I have had a lot of struggles. Things have been hard for me, but really I brought some of it on myself...

I finally realized that I was selling myself short because I was not taking enough time to read my Bible. I was reading it, sure. Actually I would just listen to it while I worked on something else.

I don't have enough time to just sit there and read it. I would argue with myself.

Then one day I was sitting on my bed, feeling really dejected, and discouraged. I knew I had to do something different.

So, I picked up a Bible study book that I had bought several months before, and started reading! I devoured a 172 page book in about 3 hours! And this time I was NOT skim reading. After I had read it I had a lot more determination.
Since then, I have really focused on putting GOD first. I will admit that I haven't done perfectly. But, God has really blessed me with a hunger to know more.

My Bible, Journal, and a Devotional Book.

Every morning, I try to get up and read my Bible first thing. I start by reading a chapter in Proverbs(like if its the 15th, I'll read chapter 15...). Then I read 1 or more sections of the book From My Heart to Yours By Glorianne K. Gibbs. For each day there is a verse, then thoughts on the verse.

So, I started to write down each verse, and my own thoughts on the verse. That way it really makes me think about it...

What is God's Will for my Life?

What is Gods will for my life?

This is a question that I have really been pondering recently. I am 16; I am finishing 10th grade. In just 2 years I will ~LORDwilling~ be graduating. After that I’m not sure what the Lord wants me to do, yet.

Is it Gods will for me to go to college? If it is, should I just go to the local community college, or Bible College? Should I go to the Bible College that’s only in another state, or the one that’s on the opposite end of the country? What should I go for? Should I go to be a teacher, or for business or something else?

I don’t know the answer to any of these questions, but I need to find out. But I still need to be open to what GOD wants for me, not what I want…

In my Bible reading I just finished up the book of Deuteronomy. The children of Israel had to wander in the wilderness for 40 years because they did not accept Gods perfect plan. They tried to make a decision based on their own emotions, and they messed up the plan. I don’t want to do that!

“Now the LORD had said unto Abram, Get thee out of thy country, and from thy kindred,
and from thy father's house, unto a land that I will shew thee:
And I will make of thee a great nation, and I will bless thee, and make thy name great;
and thou shalt be a blessing:
And I will bless them that bless thee, and curse him that curseth thee: and in thee shall all families of the earth be blessed.”
Genesis 12:1

Abraham and Sarah were asked to leave EVERYTHING… They had absolutely no clue where they were going. They went where God commanded them to. They were constantly on the move, but they always went when God told them too. Because of that God made a great nation of them.

God told Noah;
“Make thee an ark of gopher wood; rooms shalt thou make in the ark, and shalt pitch it within and without with pitch. Genesis 6:14

God asked Noah to do something that to human thinking just did not make sense! I mean if I asked you to build a fireproof airplane, because the world was going to blow up… would you do it? No, because that’s crazy!

Sometimes, too often really, we think “You know what? God isn’t going to ask me to do anything that takes me outside of my comfort zone. He’ll give me something easy, or He will back up the plan I already have.”

That isn’t true. It is our job to be open to whatever God has planned for us. It is our job to find out, search the Scriptures, to find out what His plan for us is… Some of us are called to serve God right at home… others are called to the mission field, government, or somewhere else in our country…

What is Gods plan for you? God plan for me right now is to serve God at home… where my parents are. If I don’t do Gods immediate plan, how will I fulfill the role that he has for me later in life? Gods plan for me in the immediate future include continuing to work on my character, learning how to relate to people better, serving my church through my violin, helping out in our printing ministry, and just being an encouragement to people. These are just a few, but I need to be faithful in the little things before I am assigned to big things!